I haven't posted in this blog for a very long time. I am currently living in Norway, just southeast of Oslo, attending the University of Life Sciences for a Master's in Agroecology. I will be traveling around a bit with my studies. I have as of recently become very anxious in my head. I can't seem to come to terms with the fact that I am back in school. Once the initial novelty of being in Norway has worn off, I am wondering if I will be able to exist in this academic world for the entire 2 year program? I find myself wishing that I was simply back at work, with my hands in the soil, and my head in the clouds. Yet something is forcing me to persevere and invest my time and energy into this thing which is compelling me to learn how to analyze and recognize systems and patterns in food and farming. I am finding solace in reading Integral Life Practice, and beginning to incorporate it into my everyday life. I am realizing more and more everyday that I dislike things I am good at. I am good at making friends, and adapting to new people, but I am not interested in people. I am good with marketing and selling things but I dislike capitalism. I just want to associate with a few people whom I love. Why do I find myself becoming infatuated? What is it in me that always defines my life by unobtainable goals? How can I learn to be patient and see things through? How can I become more dedicated in my life, and develop my skills further? Many thoughts race through my brain but I am unable to focus on just one and investigate it further. I feel that I am unable to elaborate more on this subject. Sophia-Herbstwerk

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